Last Thursday I started seeing “Happy Mother’s Day” wishes scattered through my social media feed. My first thought? “Whew, I am so glad that I don’t have to write up a blog post about motherhood this year.” And, legit, not even two hours later Becki sent me a message saying that God had laid me on her heart and would I please write a Mother’s Day message for “Not Quite SuperMoms. ” My eyes about rolled out.of.my.head (I was rollin’ them like an exasperated teen with an attitude) as I muttered, “Ahh, c’mon, Lord…seriously?!!” “Not this year, please.”
Y’all. I’m about to split my heart wide open and get down to the rawness deep inside. For the past three months, I have struggled with being a wife, being a mom, just being. One day, depression just snuck up behind me and knocked my feet right out from underneath my perfectly manicured emotions. Don’t get me wrong, my life is not perfect–not one bit. And I love it. I love the unpredictability and adventures of raising a two year old, moving across country into a foreign culture and making new friends.
But it’s been hard. Through it all, one thing I had pride in was being strong. Strong enough to tame the raging emotions of loneliness when they threatened to overtake me, strong enough to get out of bed to care for my husband and son when all I wanted to do was cry under the covers and wallow in self-pity, strong enough to get dressed, get out of the house and make new friends when small talk had become just as painful as the depression and anxiety. What I didn’t know was that God (through little effort of my own) was using these precious women He had placed in my life to build a tribe that would minister to my heart in the midst of one of my darkest struggles. And isn’t that just like the body of Christ? Or at least how it should be–to come along side of another wife, mom, sister, daughter lift her head, wipe her tears and sharpen the iron within her soul?
Moms, sweet sisters, if you are stuck or struggling or just plain exhausted you.are.not.alone. The devil will want to isolate you with thoughts of unworthiness, loneliness, false strength. But I am here to testify that you ARE worthy. “. . .I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.” Jeremiah 31:3
You are NOT alone. “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, Nor will the flame burn you.”
You ARE strong in the strength of the LORD.
“And I will strengthen them in the LORD, And in His name they will walk,” declares the LORD.
And when the Lord restores and heals you, find a friend, lift her head, wipe her tears and sharpen the iron within her soul.